Why Love Fades Away With Time ?
Its Just Another Similar True Love Story
That Ends With Tears :'(
In September, 2008, I had fell in love with a girl... this girl was
so down to earth, fun to be with, adorable, caring, and the list goes
on... let's just say it was everything I could wish for. Thankfully, she
had felt the same for me, on November 5th, 2008, we officially started
dating. For the next 2 years, our love developed rapidly and deeply, it
had seem to us that we were married. There was nothing that we cannot
tell each other, nothing that we cannot do together, I felt like I was
in heaven.
Unfortunately, things had started to change, there were signs of her
losing feelings...I've tried so hard to recover the lost love she had
for me...but no matter how hard I tried, things would only seem to go
downhill. Early July, 2010, I confronted her about the problems I've
been noticing and her behavior towards me nowadays... and indeed, she
had finally admitted that she had lost feelings for me. The reason?
Because it's been too long. It never occured to me that being in love
with someone so much, the feelings could simply dissolve because of
time. We officially broke up after that conversation.
I remember it was month of July and it was raining heavily outside i
moved out with my umbrella making my heart understand the truth and the
truth was, that she no longer loves me and she was no more mine, after
walking a little distance i wonder how a drop of tear rolled down my
eyes. i started smiling to fool myself that the tears are fake.. i am
actually not sad.. i looked towards other people, everyone was happy
only i was the one who was finding no reasons to smile.. i felt like a
clown and the pain inside my heart erupted out in the form of tears..
this time i failed to stop them and everyone who was crossing me was
looking towards me with pity.. I have let the wind blow away my umbrella
and allowed the rain water to fall on my face and wash away all my
tears.. I cried in rain so that my tears are drained and no one can
predict that my heart is broken, no one can understand my pain....
I never blamed her for breaking up like that, because she had simply
followed what her heart told her, perhaps it was something I did that
made her start loosing feelings. Whatever it may be, it wasn't her
fault.
For the next 2 months, I still tried my best to recover her, perhaps
finding a way to erupt her feelings again. I tried and tried...because I
valued this relationship more than living itself. And in the end, I was
rejected countless times..now it seems as if I cannot even be her
friend. It really hurts...and to this day, 1 year 4 months after
breaking up, I'm still hurt...I still constantly think about her. Could
someone tell me why?
When we were together for the 2 years, I felt so good, so inspired by
life itself, I enjoyed everything I could possibly do/get. I had
realized that without that love, I feel so empty. Whenever I listen to
the music I used to listen to and do the things I used to do, I feel as
though something's missing, I do not know what, but it's like I'm just a
shell now. It's back to the days of life before September 2008, the
days of solitude...
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